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Blessings

Sometimes, I feel like life is a real challenge. Then I remember how blessed I am. Even on the days where I’m sick and have to go to the doctor for the third time in two weeks, I realize that I have it so. good. There are people right now in Dallas who only wish they could go to the doctor for their sicknesses. That’s just in Dallas. There are people all over the world who have never been to see the doctor. Who have never imagined the day that they will be healthy. I am blessed.

There are days when I have to take a test after feeling like I’ve learned very little on the subject. On those days, I try to remember that I am getting a college education while there are little girls around the world who would cry tears of joy at being told they are allowed to go to school for the first time in their lives. I am blessed.

There are days when I feel like I don’t want to get up and go to work, when all I want to do is stay at home and read. I am so blessed to have a job I like, much more so to have a job at all.

On days when wedding planning overwhelms me, I realize that I am blessed in getting to have a wedding where I not only know the groom, I love him and he loves me. Many women around the world are denied this pleasure. I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams.

I do not claim to know why I am blessed with all of these things and why others are suffering daily, but I do know that I want to help them. Where women, girls, men and boys are denied these blessings, I want to be the one God uses to help them. I know that God created me for this reason–to share his love and blessings with those around me and those across the globe. I can’t save the world, I know. But I can most definitely try to make one little difference. That is my goal. Make a difference.

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What’ve you been doing lately?

Lately, I haven’t had the urge to blog, which is kind of strange. I guess it’s been because nothing really exciting has happened. At least, nothing that can be of any interest to anyone besides me.

A few days ago, though, I got some news that definitely got me excited. I found out that I am going to be going to Korea for a little less than a month this summer to teach English. Whoa. I still can’t believe it. The process was crazy, consisting of me wanting to go on this trip as soon as I found out about it in November, then deciding I didn’t want to go anymore after asking that a couple letters of recommendation get sent in (and not sending in the application), followed by receiving a call like last month asking me to set up a time for an interview (and please, fill out your application), to interviewing twice and then finding out I’m going. To South Korea. To teach. For three weeks. Again, whoa.

I am super excited about the whole shebang, but I am a little scared, too. I mean, what if I mess this up? What if I somehow get lost? What if someone wants me to eat fish intestines again? The thing is, none of these things are viable fears (except the fish guts). God has this totally under control, and I expect to learn a lot about trusting in and depending on him. So I guess you can say I am confident in my fears, because I know that when I am weak, he is strong.

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A Statement Worth Making

This is my personal statement of what I believe. It is really quite lengthy, and most definitely incomplete. It is, however, the best I can do. Leave me your thoughts if you would like to do so. :)

Let me give you some background. I was not raised in a Christian home. I didn’t start going to church until I was in eighth grade, and even though I accepted Christ in fifth grade, I didn’t know what that really meant until ninth grade. I have since seen many people in my family come to church for the first time or return to church after a long absence in the past several years. I attend Dallas Baptist University, where my faith is strengthened and challenged just about every day. In no way am I a saint, and in many ways, I am a sinner. Without Jesus, I would be nowhere.

My faith is the most important thing in my life. Call me crazy if you want, because I am okay with that. I love Jesus with all my heart because he has done so much for me. Seriously, I don’t want to know where I would be right now and what I would be doing if I didn’t have Jesus to guide me. He is the only one who is always there for me no matter what, the only one whom I can trust entirely, the only one that I can depend on when times are good and when they are bad.

I struggle most days to do what I am supposed to do as a Christian. I mean, I genuinely have a hard time loving my neighbor at times. I have lied, been completely lazy and entirely too eager to skip church to get more sleep. When I see someone in need, I too often turn a blind eye. These things aren’t that bad by the standards of the world, but I know I am made to do better. But no matter what I do, I know that at the end of the day, God is there to love me. Because Jesus died for my sins (yours, too), I can confidently rest in knowing that no matter how many times I screw up, I am loved. Isn’t that amazing?

There are things that I love about going to church. For one, I get the chance to praise my amazing God with other people. There is just something about being surrounded by people who feel the same way you do about God and who want to praise him, too. Another thing I find fascinating is the great support system I have. When I was in my youth group at home, I had lots friends, but I wasn’t really involved, and didn’t form many deep bonds. A few, but not many. There are people that I know will be a part of the rest of my life, though, and I am so thankful for them. Now, I’m considered a “college kid”/ adult, and I have a lot of good relationships with really godly adults who can teach me a lot about life and Christ through their example. Having them to turn to when I need to makes a world of difference in my life.

The Bible is way cool. No bones about it, I really look forward to seeing what God has to say. I try to read a chapter every night of whatever book I’m working my way through, and to be honest, I can go nights and nights without any big revalations. But sometimes, just when I need something, God gives it to me. Example? Okay, glad you asked. The night before I go to Korea for a week, I ask God to give me something to hold on to while I’m there. I’m reading Isaiah, and he gives me a verse in chapter 56 that says “my house will be called a house of prayer for all nations.” One of the most important things I learned/experienced on that trip was that God moves in such big ways across cultures nothing like ours. Another example for you is this: I was discouraged about how a ministry I am involved wasn’t exactly going the way I wanted it to, and I felt like it was never going to get better. God’s answer? 2 Corinthians 4:1. “Therefore, since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart.” I’m telling you, God speaks through the Bible.

Another important thing is prayer. I will be the first to admit that I am not very good at praying solemn prayers. My mind tends to wander and I just find myself thinking of what I need to do next week, and wondering if I can learn how to make enchiladas. Instead, I prefer to just talk to God. Tell him what I’m thinking and feeling, ask him things, just omment in general. He doesn’t really talk back, so it’s not really a conversation so much as a verbalized (in my head) letter. I really feel close to God during these times. Especially in the mornings walking to class when I can see his wonderful creation all around me. Nature is a big connecter between God and myself. Listening to birds singing or a flowing river, seeing a beautiful flower or sunset, I am so at peace.

Sure there are some things that I definitely have a hard time with when it comes to politics. It is so very difficult to know where to draw the line at what I believe is right and should be made law and what I believe is morally wrong, but can find no legal basis for denying. I am against abortion unless the mother will die, or in cases of rape and incest. I do not believe that a woman has the right to chose. However, while I personally do not support gay marriage and would not vote for it, I cannot vote against it, either. I think that it is a desicion that is best left up to the states. I definitely subscribe to the view that we can hate the sin (as we should hate all sin), but we must love the sinner. As long as we remember that no person is better than another person, we’re on the right track.

I don’t want to shove my personal views down anyone’s throat. After all, you have a right to believe what you wish. My objective, then, is to be able to present to everyone (with love) my personal relationship with Jesus Christ, the only one who saves. I may argue my views with you in a civilized way if we don’t agree, and you can argue yours with me. All I want to to is tell the world about Jesus. It is entirely up to the world how they take the news and what they do with it. I think this is fair.

I strive to live my life for Christ, to fulfil the plan that I know God has for me. Knowing what I know, how can I do less?

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Meeting Bhutan

I have always loved meeting people from other countries and getting to share in their cultures (see many posts here for more details). I recently got a chance to become involved in refugee ministry here in Dallas. Yesterday, my roommate Ariel and I went to house church with some people who minister to Bhutanese refugees. It was an amazing experience that I will always remember.

We arrived after the apartment full of people had already begun singing in Nepali. Talk about being thrown into the culture! The language is complex and beautiful, and I really enjoyed listening to it. It was interesting, though, when they requested that Ariel and the missionaries and I had to sing a couple of songs. Talk about stepping out of my comfort zone! Hearing new believers talking about how they wanted to give their lives and trust to God was amazing as well. They have been through a lot, from being kicked out of Bhutan for speaking the wrong language (Nepali) and being the wrong religion (Hindu) to being relocated to Dallas, so it is amazing that they have decided to become Christians and begun following God with a great desire.

Next week, Ariel and I are going to start a children’s ministry so that the eleven or so kids can get something out of it as well. I’m looking forward to watching that develop into something great! I know it will be difficult, but the reward will be greater than I can imagine. We are definitely going to need God’s help, though! Oh, and prayers would be greatly appreciated!

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